Sometimes Pregnancy Sucks....

Let me start by saying that I feel very blessed to be pregnant and I recognize what a gift this baby is to our family.....BUT....yes, sometimes pregnancy just plain sucks.

For some people it seems like they just practically sneeze and their pregnant. No morning sickness for them, in fact some women have told me they had MORE energy throughout their pregnancy. They don't retain water. No acid reflux, no lack of sleep or feeling uncomfortable. If there was a jealous button, now would be the time I would push it.

When I was pregnant with Coral, I threw up almost everything I ate for the first four months, and then again the last two. In my last trimester everything gave me heartburn....water gave me heart burn. I had to "sleep" sitting up. Lucky for me though my bump didn't get super big so I was never really uncomfortable.

With this pregnancy, the heart burn has started early, making is appearance just a few days after we got the positive pregnancy test. My belly, which is not huge yet, but popped out much much sooner then with Coral, already feels uncomfortable. There's that "glow" that my brother-in- law says I have, which I think is actually just sweat. And then the morning sickness. Or all day sickness is what they should call it.

With Coral, I was much to stubborn to take anything for my morning sickness, although the drs did try to get me to. I'm not much of a pill popper as it is, and so I really didn't want to take anything during my pregnancy. But I knew I would have to take something with this pregnancy if I was going to be able to take care of Coral as well. So, Diclectin it is. And of course I did hours and hours of research before taking it. Don't worry, it's totally safe.

I started taking four a day, and while I do think it helps a ton, I was still stuck in bed most of the time (plus those suckers knock you right out...wow drowsy zombie momma). It DID help me keep my food down. As pregnancy progressed, I slowly started taking less, and this last week was down to one a day, which meant my energy level was slowly going up. I was brave Sat night and thought "I'm 15 weeks already, I can probably go without the Diclectin" which resulted in my head being in the toilet and me losing my supper. Nope, morning sickness is still there which leaves me feeling gross, exhausted and defeated. Oh how I miss being able to play with my daughter.

Along with the morning sickness, I have also had bladder and kidney problems. My Easter weekend which was suppose to be spent with my family was spent in the hospital. Let's just say I had complete bladder failure, and I had things done to me that even a women who has given birth before doesn't want to think about. My bladder and kidneys still hurt everyday, and I have to watch how often I go to the washroom or else my bladder stops working.

Then there's the amniotic fluid leaks which started yesterday as well. Now this I'm used to. It happened with Coral at this exact same time in my pregnancy with her. I know the drill, bed rest with lots of fluid intake. Well, bed rest isn't really possible when I have a bouncing two year old to look after, but I can do my best to get as much rest as possible.

Yes, pregnancy can sometimes flat out suck. I'm not afraid to say it. But I have gone through it before, and I know the end result. I remember looking at Coral after she was born and saying to Andrew "she was worth it". And really, I would have gone through a million times worse then what I went through for her, and for this baby. Plus, pregnancy does have its perks, like a loving hubby who surprises me with blizzards!

Pregnant mamas who are currently not loving their pregnancy, I feel ya. Keep pushing towards that end result with me. I promise it will be worth it.